As narrated by Yaasir :
It feels like a first for me to actually look forward to seeing someone.
Usually I’m use to people looking forward to seeing me, to see what new trend am I going to start.
After the long weekend I’m finally going to see her. The whole ride to school I kept on looking in the car mirror to make sure I looked right. I think at one stage Yusra noticed and surpursed her smile.
I entered normally, secretly glancing here and there to try and spot her but I just couldn’t see her anywhere.
I started to feel slightly despondent but I tried my best not to let it show on my face.
“Yaasir! “,I heard Yusra shout.
I turned around to find Yusra running towards me and when she reached me,she whispered in my ear and said “Zaneerah by the lockers by the way, and no need to thank me.” she winked at me and walked away.
I smiled to myself remembering how close Yusra and I were.
We didn’t need to tell each other how we feeling or what the other was thinking to understand each other, some how we had a slightly different twin bond.
I walked towards the lockers but stopped myself and stood away from the lockers but in such a way that I could look at her without her or anyone else knowing.
I stood with my friends totally oblivious to the discussion going on.
I stared at her, the way she’d make her eyes big while saying something, the way she would make hand movements while speaking, the way her dimples would show when she laughs and the way when she smiled her eyes reflected innocence and kindness.
I knew for sure this can’t be love because I’m Yaasir, I don’t fall in love with girls . Girls fall in love with me.
But some part of me just wanted to stand here the whole day and stare at her.
After like 5 minutes her eyes met mine and in that split second instant her smile disappeared, her eyes that once reflected kindness now reflected anger and hurt.
The rest of the week I didn’t trouble her at all…
A part of me broke, when I was reminded yet again that she hates me. I don’t blame her I deserve her hatred.
If only she knew that I didn’t watch the video myself, neither will I ever let anyone else see it….
Sure it was wrong of me to put the video camera there but I guess in anger I didn’t realize the seriousness of my actions.
I was blinded by the feeling of revenge, at that time I couldn’t bear the thought that Zaneerah slapped me.
But when I removed the video camera and plugged it in my laptop to see if it recorded properly I saw the first second of where she enters the bathroom then I just shut down the laptop.
I didn’t have it in me to watch the video. I just couldn’t not then , not now not ever.
Authors note :
Slmz, hope all my readers are awesomely well😉.
This authors note is specifically for my cousin zainab who I wish to send a message to through this post
😭I miss you like crazy hope your finals went well I’m sure you got all those A’s
Hoping to see you soon, message me as soon as you can I lost your number 😨😞🙈